Difficult Child

You little shit,
I gave birth to you,
I fed you,
I housed you.
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I taught you how to read,
Ran around restless for you,
I did everything for you,
And still you refused to listen to me.
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You made your own decisions,
So don't blame me,
Don't place the responsibility on me,
Don't you dare direct anger my way.
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No, I won't do it.
I lived too much of my life that way.
Life is too short.
I must protect myself.
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Birthday cards for my mom,
She rejected,
Said real love from a child,
Would have created better.
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I was trapped in the box,
Under the shadows,
Of a perfectionist judge,
And I vowed never to do it.
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I hated my mom,
Never stood up to her,
And now I see her in you,
And I can't stand it.
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At birth you tore my womb,
Killed a part of me,
It can't be revived,
And all I ask is kindness.
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Why can't you be like the others?
Why so difficult?
Why so mean?
I am sorry but I have to leave.