The settling for something other than what you truly desire,
The pretension of a false self versus the true self,
Settling for the expectations of others,
Rather than the unconditional love you deserve,
Accepting the fate that life is just incapable of dealing you the royal flush,
The overwhelming sense of loss as you feel the void.
To know that you can never go back in time to fill that childhood need.
It is what brings tears from no where as you read a poem of parental love,
It is what brings tears on a wedding day as you force yourself into the next stage of life,
Knowing you are not completely ready.
It is what causes a nervous break down,
When you watch a romantic movie,
And a friend jokingly tells you that that will never happen to you.
Your hopes and dreams presented to a blinded soul,
Leave you wounded with the understanding the others are incapable of caring for you.
So you push to be the light in the world.
That you have never even seen or experienced
This is your world,
This is your sacrifice.
<SI> Scott Izu, PhD