What do you do when you just have to keep going?
When everything you believed was a lie?
When everything you worked so hard for has vanished before your eyes?
When the thing you wanted most is within reach but you do not want it anymore?
When the world keeps pushing and keeps moving but you are trapped?
And suicide becmes peaceful resolution and alternative to the churning anxiety of existence?
When idols have faded and man's condundrum has become so clear its confusing?
When people depend on you to carry the cross of a piece of the world you have carved out for yourself?
When answers are nowhere to be found yet revelations flood you to the point you cannot exist as you once were?
When light is followed by utter darkness and tears flow from no where at the recognition of kindness or even the remote possibility that man can overcome his own obstacles?
When you are alone and afraid and empty and overwhelmed and frustrated and disappointment and sad at the loss of a friend?
And people around you are getting hit left and right and there is no enemy to fight but the hopelessness of sitting in the muck simply resonates?
What do you do? What do you do then?
<SI> Scott Izu, PhD
Copyright April 2016