Desert Pain

This feeling I feel,

So much pain in my heart,

Trying to hold it together,

To not fall apart.

I have to continue working,

Continue to see my kids.

The tears flow,

And I cannot control,

I feel like a pussy,

A failure as a man and father,

My vulnerability flashes hard in my face,

So many ways to numb the pain,

And all lead to death,

Failure to stand,

Failure to be a man,

Can someone just hold me tight?

Tell me it will be alright?

And knowing thousands feel just like me?

No attachments or strong bonds,

And the pain soaks in.

Can we form a circle?

Unite a flame.

Freedom fighters.

This is what I fight for.