The Blacker The Berry

I have tasted of the sweetest fruit,

Beauties that you never would have known,

My conservative exterior is the perfect camoflouge

For my restless interior,

I thought any woman would quiet my soul,

But I soon learned that was not the case.

So like a wild stalion,

I thought if I was to roam free,

That would bring me peace,

Threesomes and orgies,

I was showered with attention,

Yet, it left me even more alone.

I thought a popular cheerleader or actress or model would please me

For nothing feels greater than the envy of eyes

As I walk through stares standing next to a tight red dress

But intimacy only revealed the subtle flaws.

I thought perhaps a woman from my roots was the answer,

So I chased English and Japanese and Puerto Rican girls.

I have tried it all but to no avail.

Was youth the answer,

Thirsting like a blood lust,

Chasing a mystic fountain?

No, for my years have aged my taste buds.

One might think I must be gay,

But no, I have tried that too.

Unfortunately enough,

I have tried a few.

But all and all,

Experience does not seem to lead me closer.

More like frozen with the possibility,

That perhaps there is no hope.

...

<SI> Scott Izu, PhD
July 2016

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Letting a Lover Go

It seems like a lifetime ago,

I remember the scent, the scene, the feeling,

And the moment I recollect the memory,

Instantly I miss it all.

  My mind wanders through a myriad of ways,

  To reopen the door,

  But the door was closed for a reason,

  So I must force myself to remember how to let go,

Then, like a shard to the heart,

I must actually do it.

...
<SI> Scott Izu, PhD
July 2016

Wendy Bird

I felt it the instant you were gone,

A hole in my heart,

Am I brought to ashes,

A corpse I was already,

Now death remains.

Angry, because you didn't even say good bye.

All of my schemes,

As I scream for control,

Yet powerlessness remains.

So be it.

If this is the only way.

Star crossed lovers were never meant to be.

You must have your reasons,

Though they will plague me.

Even twenty years later.

A martyr though I try to change.

Sadness.

A huge chunk of my life gone.

Vanished.

Yet, I had no say in the matter.

Ramblings, Ravings.

It does not matter.

Life goes on no matter how I feel.

You know what they say about a bird you love.

So I guess I have no choice.

...

<SI> Scott Izu, PhD
Copyright 2016

Season's End

Sorrow just wells from my heart

Pain so deep I don't even know where to start

Tears just roll from my eyes

20 years older, they say I should be wise

But me, I'm just a fool

A fool in love, tortured as a soul

So many people around me

But no one even knows me

A sole survivor, single and lonely

Pain and frustration, wallow in pity

The breeze of night its comforting

And my lover in distress also suffering

"Someday you might be feeling

That life has past you by,

Your spirits might be sinking

With hope in short supply."

Tears run down my face

Nothing has changed

Drugs, sex and alcohol

Have only damaged the brain

Tonight's my last night

Will you miss me when I'm gone?

I wish there was a happy ending

To this stupid, sad song.

...

<SI> Scott Izu, PhD
Copyright June 2016

Lonesome Tiger

We are not alone

Loneliness is what we feel

When loved ones are gone

...

<SI> Scott Izu, PhD

Copyright May 2016

Lost in Reality

I still think about you every day,

Lost in a haze, finding my way.

Thoughts flurry and race in my mind

As time strolls on, I continue my grind

Remembering the playground across from my house,

Where we would meet and just hang out.

Its all meaningless without my other half,

Now I fall victim to the aftermath,

Why the fuck did life not delivery me

The simple and wholesome family,

Together, connected and laughter to go around

Instead struggling to respect society's bounds

Why could I not fall in love with the one to raise to my kids?

As it stirs within me 'cause I have no control over this.

So torment fills me as I hit the sheets and covers

And your name brushes across my lips as I lay next to my lover.