Thursday, July 9, 2015

Death of an Affair

With lack of time and romance,

You will feel objectified.

Compulsive nights and dopamine highs,

Will leave you drained and in need of rest.

When light shines on your actions,

The weight of the social consequences will be devastating.

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You can communicate what you can handle,

But more will be thrown at you and dumped on you.

You will communicate what you can give,

But more will always be asked.

You can try to contain the impact,

But eventually the bomb will blow.

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Without the truth,

Intimacy will die.

Without nurturing the soil,

Passion will die.

Without the integration into your life,

Commitment will die.

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<SI> Scott Izu, PhD
© July 2015

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

Insignificant

I sit here in the middle of the night,

Glancing up at the Hilton,

I am so small and insignificant,

Memories of grand parties,

And drinks and laughter are a distant past,

I take a deep breath,

Just breathe.

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<SI> Scott Izu, PhD
© July 2015

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

Emptiness

Each day I crave.

As I subdue my craving,

My desire is to take enough that I might multiply what I take in,

To create an abundance within myself,

That I might naturally give through generosity.

As I subdue my cravings,

It is often the case that my actions cause harm and suffering.

These undoubtedly affect my inner being,

As I feel the stress and consequences of my actions.

I wish to release these undesired impacts and feelings.

But to do so requires simultaneously abandoning the actions which caused the disturbance,

While still fulfilling my cravings.

As such, the harm and suffering eventually subside.

And my contributions eventually increase.

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<SI> Scott Izu, PhD
© July 2015

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Empowering the Victim

Powerlessness is the trademark of the victim mindset.

But do not discount the unfathomable power of choice.

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The choice to accept reality as it stands.

The choice to respond intentionally based on personal beliefs.

The choice to ultimately forgive the perceived failure of God and others.

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Yes, a victim is empowered by the creation of a framework,

Where meaning can be discovered,

And fruits of growth, faith and hope may be found.

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<SI> Scott Izu, PhD
© July 2015

Moving On

I am leaving it all,

So many memories built,

The good and the bad times.

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It is time to move on,

A new season of life,

Melancholy hits my heart.

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To new friendships,

New love, new life,

And  a good future.

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<SI> Scott Izu, PhD
© July 2015

Friday, July 3, 2015

Our Judge

The world judges my spirituality.

The religious judge my sins.

But only God has the right to judge.

Only he knows the truth.

And only he knows the environment of my trespass.

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<SI> Scott Izu, PhD
© July 2015

Thursday, July 2, 2015

Broken Souls

I am broken.

Will I ever be whole again?

I used to be able to have fun.

I used to be able to connect with others.

Now all I feel is pain.

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I attract the broken.

They are comforted by me.

But they need so much.

When did this world become so screwed up?

When did all this suffering and pain begin?

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Family, friends, children,

They are ripped apart by this world,

A pain so devastating, we can't even explain it.

Why?

It is too much.  It is just too much.